Tuesday, November 25, 2008
A song to encourage those having exams in NUS at the moment. For all my friends, especially Ying Xuan, Dina, Shawn, Isaac, Sheng Qiang, Geneviene, Chong Yi, Jeff, Lin Yang and everyone else.
放心去考
我们都在这个大学，读各种科目
无论你读商业管理，还是 Statistics
有人说 读书太辛苦， 谁说不是呢？
考试呢，压力更加， 我说尽力就好啦
Chorus
放心去考，我会祷告，Do not be afraid
你要有信心，Do your very best
进了考场，你要冷静，不要太紧张
只要你尽力而为，无论考得这样，You are still my Friend.
Labels: A song from me to do your best for exams
Monday, November 24, 2008
Went to visit the counsellor at NUS today. Told the counsellor about what happened in Taiwan and how my exchange got disrupted. To sum it up, I had bipolar disorder over there and my mood was on a high. I was excited to do many things in Taipei and my mind could not rest properly. Even at night I could not properly rest even though I was on bed whole night. This poor sleep affected my judgement, thinking and behaviour. This resulted in me doing weird and unpleasant things, so I got sent back to Singapore to rest and recover.
Anyway don ask me too much about it. If i want to talk about it, I will talk bout it. Its jus sian that I got sent back when I wanna finish my exchange there. I guess mental health n well being is more important that studies and exchange. Now that im back, I will be more than glad to tell you more bout the adventures I had in Taiwan or the night markets, paragliding experience or campus concerts I went to.
Important thing is now I have a better understanding of myself and my condition and how to cope with it. Anyway Lets talk bout other things. Just an opinion on BGR. I have come to realised that its God timing and plan when He bring 2 persons together. A relationship is meant to help each other grow and find their true self. Its not meant to pull any single party down. Also, a strong friendship is important before 2 parties goes into a relationship. Its no point jus trying it out or going into a BGR when the frienship is not strong. Kk, thats all for now. Hope I can understand my friends better, just like I would want to be understood by frens.
Anyway don ask me too much about it. If i want to talk about it, I will talk bout it. Its jus sian that I got sent back when I wanna finish my exchange there. I guess mental health n well being is more important that studies and exchange. Now that im back, I will be more than glad to tell you more bout the adventures I had in Taiwan or the night markets, paragliding experience or campus concerts I went to.
Important thing is now I have a better understanding of myself and my condition and how to cope with it. Anyway Lets talk bout other things. Just an opinion on BGR. I have come to realised that its God timing and plan when He bring 2 persons together. A relationship is meant to help each other grow and find their true self. Its not meant to pull any single party down. Also, a strong friendship is important before 2 parties goes into a relationship. Its no point jus trying it out or going into a BGR when the frienship is not strong. Kk, thats all for now. Hope I can understand my friends better, just like I would want to be understood by frens.
Labels: Better understanding
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Now that I am back in Singapore, I feel so much at home. The comfort of my own bed, the delicious cooking of my mum and the familiar SBS buses and MRTs. Nothing beats home. Even though I had fun in Taipei, I guess all the freedom and fun is only temporary. In Taipei there is no one to nag and control me and I could go anywhere and do whatever I like. In a way, I am tied to communities in Singapore, like family, church, school. However, this sense of community made me felt more belong and happy.
Almost all my friends are having exams now. Wanna wish all those doing revisions to have a clear mind and may all they study go in. Its crunch time and alot of my friends are feeling the stress. THe stress is temporary, and its important to have friends going through this difficult time together. I am more than glad to be this friend and anytime anyone of u out there feel stressed out, I can provide a listening ear or lame jokes. Kk, We shall play till we drop after exams k? Jia you for all the ppl taking exams. :)
Almost all my friends are having exams now. Wanna wish all those doing revisions to have a clear mind and may all they study go in. Its crunch time and alot of my friends are feeling the stress. THe stress is temporary, and its important to have friends going through this difficult time together. I am more than glad to be this friend and anytime anyone of u out there feel stressed out, I can provide a listening ear or lame jokes. Kk, We shall play till we drop after exams k? Jia you for all the ppl taking exams. :)
Labels: Home Sweet Home
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Qn : Which is the kind of food in Singapore that can speak to people?
Answer : Bread talk
Qn : Who is the highest guy in Singapore?
Answer : The one who stands at the peak of Bukit Timah Hill
Qn : Why did the chicken cross the road?
Answer : Because the underground tunnel is closed.
The idea of this post is that the more lame your joke is, the better it is. I love lameness. Lame only shows u make the effort to show humour, better than those boring ppl who don even try :)
Answer : Bread talk
Qn : Who is the highest guy in Singapore?
Answer : The one who stands at the peak of Bukit Timah Hill
Qn : Why did the chicken cross the road?
Answer : Because the underground tunnel is closed.
The idea of this post is that the more lame your joke is, the better it is. I love lameness. Lame only shows u make the effort to show humour, better than those boring ppl who don even try :)
Labels: A Joke a Day keeps ur sadness away
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
This is just a post specially for everyone who came to the hospital to visit me. It really meant alot to me and helped me alot. First of all wanna thank the best mum in the world, which is my mum who came and cared for me. Next, my brother who flew all the way to Taipei to bring me and my luggage back. Also, Meng Chung, Dicky, Chee Meng who helped me so much and bought dinner for me.
I also wanna thank everyone in mY CG who came to visit me. Thanks Linda for all the biblical advice and help u have given me. Thanks Uncle JOhnny, Jackson's dad who bought so much food n rations I could prepare for a war :). Thanks Uncle. Thanks Auntie who came also. Basically I jus wanna say a big thank u to all, Jackson, Shawn, Serena, Lin. oh yA lin cannot forget U. She brought me 2 of the best dishes from Zhi Cha to have dinner with me. It was the best meals I had, with the Pork Ribs and mussels. Durian was totally great too. Enjoyed the time chatting with ya.
lastly, a big thank you n hug to those who had helped me one way or another to mY recoverY. I love all u Ppl, and I also wanna spread this love of Christ to others around me. Like what Jesus said, Love as I have loved u, by this all men shall know that U are my Disciples. :) Praise the Lord.
I also wanna thank everyone in mY CG who came to visit me. Thanks Linda for all the biblical advice and help u have given me. Thanks Uncle JOhnny, Jackson's dad who bought so much food n rations I could prepare for a war :). Thanks Uncle. Thanks Auntie who came also. Basically I jus wanna say a big thank u to all, Jackson, Shawn, Serena, Lin. oh yA lin cannot forget U. She brought me 2 of the best dishes from Zhi Cha to have dinner with me. It was the best meals I had, with the Pork Ribs and mussels. Durian was totally great too. Enjoyed the time chatting with ya.
lastly, a big thank you n hug to those who had helped me one way or another to mY recoverY. I love all u Ppl, and I also wanna spread this love of Christ to others around me. Like what Jesus said, Love as I have loved u, by this all men shall know that U are my Disciples. :) Praise the Lord.
Labels: Thank God n everyone else
Monday, November 17, 2008
Day n Night Im stuck in Hospital ,
No one else except Christ know what its like.
I just wanna say that I am well,
But its not for me to Judge..
Chorus
Thank you Lord for healing me,
Thank you Lord for touching me,
Thats how you can recover,
From the inside to outside.
No one else except Christ know what its like.
I just wanna say that I am well,
But its not for me to Judge..
Chorus
Thank you Lord for healing me,
Thank you Lord for touching me,
Thats how you can recover,
From the inside to outside.
Labels: Song of Recovery
Sunday, November 16, 2008
My thoughts n feelings have been quite a rollercoaster the past few days. From the time I went into the airplane in Chiang Kai-Shek Airport in Taipei, until now im resting in NUH, I felt that God is the one who is always with me. Its through this period I grew closer to our Lord Jesus Christ.
What happened was I did not have good sleep over in my university NTUST and it resulted in me doing all sorts of funny n weird things. The doctor diagnosed me as having "Bipolar Disorder". It is a disorder that affects the mind and about 1 in 200 develops such a disorder. The symptoms are so applicable to me, like increased activity,decreased need for sleep, overactive thoughts and reckless behaviour.
My poor sleep was a result of many factors. These factors include Homesickness, Frens in my dorm not as caring as i tot they should be, Mattress too hard and also I was feeling too excited about what I can do tomorrow. This disorder affected my ability to think and act rationally. I was so nervous about each day and every small thing which others say or talk bout in front of me made me think even more. In the end I "胡思乱想” and did some stupid things. I rather not talk bout it.
Anyway my brother was very nice and he took urgent leave and flew to Taipei to see me. I was in the hospital and he helped me settle all my luggage and ticket and everything else. At that time I still wanted to stay in Taipei because my exchange was supposed to be until 20 Jan 2009. By Gods plan, I came back to Singapore on Thur 6 November 2008. Thats bout 2 months plus before the intended time. I was upset I could not say my goodbyes to my Taiwan frens. My Gou Di, Sa Sha, Lulala frens, ROck Band frens, the cute skatergirl, my soccer frens, my church frens. So many frens I have made over jus 2 months. Though the friendship isnt deep, it is nice and memorable.
As for now, I am still unsure of what I should do next. My frens n family in Singapore tell me to stay, but my heart tells me to go back to Taiwan. This is the rare chance to experience life and experience overseas life to the fullest. I want to do more outreach in primary schools. I want to learn even more in my piano and drums. The most important thing is the freedom to be myself. In Sg, it is a very organised and nice place. However, due to the workload and CCAs I joined in NUS, plus church commitments and frens request, I do not have the time to pursue the things I really wanna do. In Taiwan I just be myself and I pursued my interests like Piano, music and girls. :)
Anyway, Angorians or Christians reading this, please keep me in prayer. I need direction as to my heart's desire to go to Taiwan, whether is it to play or really do mission. Pray for my attitude n mood to be better if i do go back to Taiwan. The last thing I want is to go thru the same cycle of sleep lost, mood swings and then resulting in me doing stupid things. Ok last but not least, I will continue to soar to greater heights in whatever I am doing, for the Lord is my Engine and Strength. :)
What happened was I did not have good sleep over in my university NTUST and it resulted in me doing all sorts of funny n weird things. The doctor diagnosed me as having "Bipolar Disorder". It is a disorder that affects the mind and about 1 in 200 develops such a disorder. The symptoms are so applicable to me, like increased activity,decreased need for sleep, overactive thoughts and reckless behaviour.
My poor sleep was a result of many factors. These factors include Homesickness, Frens in my dorm not as caring as i tot they should be, Mattress too hard and also I was feeling too excited about what I can do tomorrow. This disorder affected my ability to think and act rationally. I was so nervous about each day and every small thing which others say or talk bout in front of me made me think even more. In the end I "胡思乱想” and did some stupid things. I rather not talk bout it.
Anyway my brother was very nice and he took urgent leave and flew to Taipei to see me. I was in the hospital and he helped me settle all my luggage and ticket and everything else. At that time I still wanted to stay in Taipei because my exchange was supposed to be until 20 Jan 2009. By Gods plan, I came back to Singapore on Thur 6 November 2008. Thats bout 2 months plus before the intended time. I was upset I could not say my goodbyes to my Taiwan frens. My Gou Di, Sa Sha, Lulala frens, ROck Band frens, the cute skatergirl, my soccer frens, my church frens. So many frens I have made over jus 2 months. Though the friendship isnt deep, it is nice and memorable.
As for now, I am still unsure of what I should do next. My frens n family in Singapore tell me to stay, but my heart tells me to go back to Taiwan. This is the rare chance to experience life and experience overseas life to the fullest. I want to do more outreach in primary schools. I want to learn even more in my piano and drums. The most important thing is the freedom to be myself. In Sg, it is a very organised and nice place. However, due to the workload and CCAs I joined in NUS, plus church commitments and frens request, I do not have the time to pursue the things I really wanna do. In Taiwan I just be myself and I pursued my interests like Piano, music and girls. :)
Anyway, Angorians or Christians reading this, please keep me in prayer. I need direction as to my heart's desire to go to Taiwan, whether is it to play or really do mission. Pray for my attitude n mood to be better if i do go back to Taiwan. The last thing I want is to go thru the same cycle of sleep lost, mood swings and then resulting in me doing stupid things. Ok last but not least, I will continue to soar to greater heights in whatever I am doing, for the Lord is my Engine and Strength. :)
Labels: 1 week Back in SG
Friday, November 14, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
"I'll be Back"
Fei Says He is Back
Im Back
Im Back in Singapore to Rest
Im Back to Recover.
I Will be Back for a while - 1 to 2 weeks, depending on God's plan
I will Be back Again after I leave
I told Ya
"I'll Be Back"
Fei Says He is Back
Im Back
Im Back in Singapore to Rest
Im Back to Recover.
I Will be Back for a while - 1 to 2 weeks, depending on God's plan
I will Be back Again after I leave
I told Ya
"I'll Be Back"
Labels: Back in Singapore from 6 Nov to ? Nov
Monday, November 03, 2008
Definition of eating breakfast varies from CUlture to CUlture. For Singapore, its Macdonalds, McNuffin without sausage, Roti prata, laksa, bee hoon or LoTi. For Czech. its Cornflakes, Milks with Honey Stars and Whatever Shit. For Brunei, I got to ask Jen Hong again. Racial Differences are there. I wanted to take the Honey Stars from my Czech Fren BOwl, He pushed me to the ground. In his culture, its stealing. WHAAATTT THEEEE R$#@)($*()#@*$(@*(_$#@($*(#@*(#@)($*#@$*#@*$)(*#@($*#@(*()#@*$(@*(#@*($*@)($(#@*(#@*()@#*$(@*(@*$_(#@*$9284928=093284032184=09832
Im going for a run to NTU>National Taiwan UNiVersity. So Glad I brought the right stuff. My IRIVER MP3 PLAYER> IN CASE U WONDERING XUAN, THE IRIVER MP3 PLAYER IS ON MY ARM> IM MORE SENTIMENTAL THAN U PLS> U ALWAYS SAY U SENTIMENTAL> I DONT PAY ATTN TO DETAIL.
HERE ARE THE DETAILS : I post THe Pics Soon. Stay IN TUNED ON Taipei TV, FEinaldo Reporting. :)
Labels: Report From My NTUST
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Really tired. Play too much. My eyes wanna close n cannot close. Tmr morning got church. But I cant fall asleep in sermon. 3.5 hours more to meeting my fren Theo to go another church. I know what I need and I need it. So i pray to God.
Labels: Prayer
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